Vacation.

Me and the hubby are taking to kids to Niagara Falls to some waterpark for 3 days.  I’m excited because I’m getting the HELL out of my cave for 3 days….I won’t have to cook…clean…make the bed or worry about where on earth N has hidden all the little goldfish this time NOT MY COUCH!

Sure D is going to cry as usual (I swear he’s colic or teething) and I’ll spend most of the time watching from the sidelines while N and Daddy play – cause I’m holding the baby BUT OMG IT’S A CHANGE OF LIFE…for just a little but anyway.

Vacations for us will be with the kids for a couple years, I don’t trust anyone enough to leave them somewhere.  (Actually I do but this person lives too far from my house) Plus adding 2 kids to someones family for 1 week is a huge burden if you ask me. I would feel like I owe them the world after that, and that’s a lot of pressure cause I dont’ have the world to give (cheeseball). 

We have a friend that lives in Europe and he wants to meet up in Cuba this winter sans kids because of course he is single and has no little monkies. As much as I’d like to go down south and drink my face off for the first time in 3 years it won’t happen because I’m just not ready to leave the babies.  I don’t think vacationing with a single person (well he has a gf) would be any fun because we don’t have much to talk about other than our kids (well I don’t being the brain-dead house-mom that I am). I’ll save that vacation for when our friends with kids want to go away – that way it’s the same experience, not me being sent to bed with the kids so hubby and single friends can stay down on the beach and get drunk.

And then there’s the whole -bathingsuit- issue.  If you haven’t had a baby or you have but didn’t get any stretch marks…I can’t be friends with you. Is that wrong?

 

 

Do you tell off your Mom?

What happens when you think your own Mom doesn’t like….well doesn’t “appreciate” your child.

My daughter is 2.5 and very much into the terrible twos, not all the time but she has her moments.
My mom is 62 and very much into the grumpy impatient no time for SOME kids 60’s.

My mother is constantly telling me I spoil my daughter and I let her run all over me and she rules my world. Anytime my kid does something that my mom thinks is bad I get “oh looks who wins again” or “whose the boss here” or “she knows how to push your buttons and win” god the list of slams goes on.

I know when to punish my kid – time outs work really well for us but it never seems to be enough for my mom. If my daughter – let’s call her “N” puts all the toys on the floor to play at Moms house – my Mom nearly has a heart attack, acting as if N has just destroyed the universe and it will be all Grandmaws responsibility to pull it back together. “Oh there she goes again GOSH”. Friggin toys MOM!!!

Now when it comes to my 6 month old son “D” she’s in love. The world revolves around him and she is constantly telling him this. “You are the most beautiful baby in the world” “”Perfection” all infront of N. Mom is always telling me that kids are very smart and they can pick up on how YOU feel about them….so I should always be aware of how I act infront of them. NO SHIT MOM? Do you ever wonder why N won’t hug you? You are constantly giving her shit, you drool all over her brother and not her and you are constantly telling me what I’m doing wrong?

Now I don’t think my Mom does this intentionally, but she actually now gets offended when N won’t hug her and throws her head back like a 10 year old and walks away saying “nevermind she doesn’t ever hug me she doesn’t like me” She told me she and my Dad think N is cold.. can you imagine? Like why are you telling me this can’t you just fake it??

I’m sure I haven’t articulated this correctly because it’s 11:32pm and I should have my sorry ass in bed cause lack of sleep will kill me very soon – but I’m starting to feel very hurt by how my Mom is treating me and my N. I don’t know how or even if I should bother telling her because she knows best. Do you argue with a 60 year old?

The sickest past is I have already told off my MIL for doing the exact opposite (loving N and not D).
MIL told me while I was prego that she won’t be able to love D as much because she loves N soooo much (she’s demented…it’ll take a while to explain)

So do I tell Mom? ugh.

Why I’ve started this blog.

The one person who reads this blog so far will understand why I’ve started writing this it.  For the other person (let’s pretend there is one) I have another blog full of pictures and videos of my life. Lots of stories, mostly about the kids and mostly made “sweet” because my family and extended family read it so I can’t express how I really feel. Especially my MIL whom I have a horrible relationship with  and there are so many times that I just want to vent in writing and I can’t on the other blog because she’ll read it and then I’ll have to deal with that whole mess – which in time I will explain what “mess” is in my world.

Married Single Mom: I’ve been married for 9 years together for 11. We have 2 kids, 2.4 years and 5.5 months. And I won’t sugar coat it – it’s hard fucking work (that’s the other bonus about this page, I can swear….God I like to swear when it’s appropriate). My hubby is a shift worker…lots of shitty shifts. 3 to be exact. He is a cop.  So while I consider myself to be a married woman I also think that I’m for the most part raising these kids alone and therefore also consider myself single.

I will also use this blog to try and pull my once top preforming brain out of the suer?…sewer… Staying at home has made me go dumb. Truly. I can’t spell I can’t write and I can’t talk. I used to be able to do all those things. Now unless it involves singing the Dora song, I’m just blank.  My bff “K” has a blog which I might add to my blog roll – I’ll see if that’s ok…anyway she’s a brilliant writer. I aspire to have as many (see I can’t even articulate) as many – fuck I would love to write like she does. There.

Ok that’s it for tonight. I spent most of my night trying to set this mofo up. I’m not even sure I like the design so it may change.

Thanks for amusing me by reading this. I’ll try not to be too negative but you’ll have to hear it for a little while. I have a lot of venting baggage that needs to come out. ARG!!!!